Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understandings. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
Earlier this year, I memorized these verses with my two oldest kids. James says as much as he can remember, but Jacob and Jaden have them down pat. These past few months I have been thankful that I hid these words in my heart. To say the past couple of months have been a walk in the park would be a huge lie. Don’t get me wrong, I feel so blessed with the addition of a healthy new bundle of joy. But having a baby born prematurely and in the NICU not to mention an emergency c-section has been financially draining for our family.
I am not talking the kind of draining of I wish we could go on vacation or take the kids to the movies (although those thoughts have crossed my mind a few times). I am talking about the kind of draining of I hope we will have enough money for groceries this month or keeping my breath held on the way home from the doctor because the gas hand is in the red. Sometimes I feel very stressed and can get short tempered with my family because I worry about all the doctor bills coming in. Every doctor’s office I talk to always throws in there that they take Visa or MasterCard. And, then I have to explain that we don’t rely on credit cards to pay our debts. They always make me feel half nuts because every grown adult owns a credit card right?
Well, the Lord has been gently reminding me of how He takes care of us. How He is here for us. How He provides our basic needs. One way He has been doing this is through the song “I’d Rather Have Jesus.” It was playing in the vehicle on the way to the dentist the other morning. After wondering where in the world I was going to come up with $400 to pay for the bill, I felt so much peace and happiness listening to this song. Oh how it reminds me how much I’d rather have Him than anything. He loves us and has blessed us beyond measure. He has not let us go hungry one day. He has kept a roof over our head. We have shoes on our feet and clothes on our backs. He has provided our every need. He has unexpectedly sent family and friends to help us out numerous times. He has sent food, diapers, clothes, and even money for doctor visits. We are so grateful for everything that He has done for us.
I have also heard the Holy Spirit asking me, “Why didn’t you ask me to help you with the dentist bill? Why aren’t you on your knees asking for my help? Why are you trying to pay these doctor bills on your own? Why are you trying to hide from me and not listen to me? I blessed you with these children, I will help you take care of them. You have accepted my will for your life, so now you have to trust Me.” So from this day forward, I give all of these financial worries over to the Lord. And, I mean I really give them to Him. I will not only hide Proverbs 3:5-6 in my heart, but I will live by it. He is able. I am not. His gentle reminders this week have opened my eyes and showed me what stress and worry can make you miss. Sweet moments like this…
I’d Rather Have Jesus
- I’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold;
I’d rather be His than have riches untold;
I’d rather have Jesus than houses or lands;
I’d rather be led by His nail-pierced hand
- Than to be the king of a vast domain
And be held in sin’s dread sway;
I’d rather have Jesus than anything
This world affords today.
I’d rather be faithful to His dear cause;
I’d rather have Jesus than worldwide fame;
I’d rather be true to His holy name
He’s sweeter than honey from out of the comb;
He’s all that my hungering spirit needs;
I’d rather have Jesus and let Him lead